I need to vent

So I'm not really in a happy mood because I've been sick, which makes me prone to be more honest and blunt, and I wanted to post this on facebook, but that would not be good, so I'm gonna post this on here as my vent SLASH blog. ^_^

Hello Friends,
I’m writing this in response to things that have been said to me in the past few days/weeks/months since I started attending school last year. I’m not writing this in anger or to “put people in place,” but out of love and respect for myself and to you.

My entire life, I’ve grown up as an empathetic person. I’ve been patient, and loving, and doing all that I can to give of what I have. Ask anyone who knew me prior to 2008, and they will confirm what I’m saying.

When I first started school, and I mean high school, I wanted to teach English. I wanted to work with students, and grade papers, assign homework, tea crumpets, the whole shebang! However, God had some other plans for me. As many of you know, or have heard my story, and I won’t go into this at great length, but God took me in a dark place that I was in, changed my heart, and set me on a new path. I quickly realized that I was made for much bigger things than teaching high school English.

I am an empathetic person, not blowing my own trumpet, but it’s the truth. I am a listening kind of person, and I have a lot of passion for people in times of great joy, great pain, and everything in between those states, to infinity and beyond. I am an over thinker, I become anxious at times because I do over-think things. I am an observer, but that also leads to me reading into situations more than I should.

All this being said, my personality was the perfect fit for a psychology degree. I got into counseling because I am all these things, not because I wanted to become these things. When I give advice, or when I open my mouth to say something, I’m not saying it as a counselor, or a psychologist, I’m not saying “interesting” because that’s what therapists say, and I don’t listen intently because I want to someday do that for my career. I do those things because I genuinely am just that way. Believe it or not, some people are actually made for certain careers, and this is what God created me to do.

So, before you go and criticize me and how I respond to situations by attributing them to psychology, just remember that you haven’t known me before I chose this degree. You’re seeing me from a point in time where I’m just learning about things, so I’m guessing you assume that I’m getting “too into” my degree. I’m not. This is me, Jeremy. Either love me, or hate me for it, but it’s who I am, and I’m not going to shut that off, tune it down, or amp it up because I’m studying something that I love doing.

The only reason I’m writing this is because I am trying to be more blunt and extroverted, and I am tired of being incased in this box of psychology. I’m not a psychologist. That’s a label. I’m Jeremy, and I have a personality that happens to match a degree.

You wouldn’t like it if I attributed all your success in whatever passion you have specifically to your degree. Say you love languages, so you’re studying linguistics in college (thankfully this applies to no one I know so I can use it freely.) You would probably not like it if I told you the only reason you’re good at speaking languages is because you’ve taken language classes, or if I said that the only reason you know something is because you took a class on it. No one’s said anything to this degree to me, but hopefully you get the picture.

To wrap this all up, I’m not pointing fingers at anyone, and I’m not calling anyone out to the carpet. If you feel like this is referring to you, get over yourself and confront me. We’ll battle to the death if we have to. I just want it to be clear at the morning sky that I do not want to be contained in a box anymore. It’s annoying, and hurtful at times.

I love you all, and I hope you’re not offended. If you are, please talk to me.